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Saturday, August 27, 2011
Life fucking teases you.
I hate life. I don't understand it. You like something, you want to do great in it, and then the heavens say "Oh just kidding! We're just going to let you fail for the thousandth time. You'll get through it okay? :D" Fuck making it into group C for Orchesis.
After something bad happens, you just want everything to settle, to let your mind take in what just happened. But in some cases, life has to say "Oh just kidding! Again!", and things just have to get worse until you break down and cry for an hour straight in your room. For me? Not even my room. I dont even get to call it my room anymore. I had to go in my sisters room, where NOBODY FUCKING SLEEPS ANYMORE. So then why do I still have to room with my cousin? Fuck my parents.
Asian parents. I hate them. I don't care how much they've done for me at the moment. They don't listen and they basically just want to be right all the time. Fellow asians, you know what I'm talking about. They don't understand our situations and they don't try to be considerate. Then they go back and yell at you saying, "Why can't you be more considerate of us? How on earth did I end up with a child like you??" Well. Sorry. I WAS going to be the child that ends up paying for your hospital bill when you end up in the freaking mental hospital wondering who you're husband is.
Most people say holding a grudge is bad. It's not healthy. And yes, I agree, it isn't healthy. But even I can't be as forgiving sometimes. I found out yesterday that I really hate people (aka Asian parents) who have a really serious fight with you the night before and then they offer you a fucking bowl of melon ice cream. What the hell? Get out of my face you jackass. Don't pretend that you didn't fight with me the night before. Don't pretend that you didn't tell me to be more open hearted while my fucking sister never had to share ANYTHING with the relatives living here. Don't pretend that you didn't tell me that the reason why you won't let me have my room back is because I'm messy and that another messy room will break this family apat. Don't give me that fucking shit.